To be honest, I still do it. No, not with my parents, but most definitely in certain environments I find myself in Monday-Thursday, 9-5 and weekends. (Forgive my vagueness as I'd hate to give away too much detail). **Cough**.
It is not uncommon that someone in above the mentioned environment might find me wired up with earphones securely fastened in the upright position. Please note, I did not say they were on, just that they were securely fastened.
When the music has faded and my hands scurry away at the keyboard or, you know, rolling 2000 pennies into thin paper sleeves, still I continue on. Continue on typing. Continue on rolling those pennies. Continue on pretending I don't hear you to the side of me, you to the front of me, you to the other side of me, you to the back of me, you across the way, you who just walked in, you in the office across from me, you walking past in the hallway, and all other you's in a 10 foot radius or whose voice carries at levels audible to an elephant in Ethiopia.
Speaking of which, sometimes I think I might be the elephant in Ethiopia. You know, the one who can't hear, perhaps even the one whose not listening. There are certain things in life I've tried very hard not to hear. I'm sure we all have those things. The things we ignore about ourselves, our lives, the people around us, and ultimately anything we are in denial about.
Denial is a funny thing. We all do it. And the worst part is we know when we're doing it. I think I might be doing it. Or rather, I've been doing it. We all fight different battles, but maybe it's time to accept reality and stop fighting it.
Why is it so scary to live in reality sometimes? I've got the whole "down to earth" thing down (humility, not so much), so perhaps the issue is needing to stop making things make sense to me, on this earth. Maybe reality is much bigger than that.
What reality are you ignoring? I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours-maybe.
hmm...
ReplyDeletea few things:
I laughed out loud at the "elephants in ethiopia" comment.
My current denial is debt. and how deep we're in. We're digging out, but sometimes i still spend too much.
now, tell me yours!